Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Tired

3 months ago, I doubted God, I was mad at him for not helping me when I needed him the most.
and then Baam, he gave me things beyond my imagination.

I was on the crossroad again, I never felt so helpless and hopeless, it was terrifying to know that nothing you can do to help yourself.

And so I came back to him, I realize that I couldn't live without him. I depend on him even the slightest things like finding a parking, thanking a meal.

3 months, I suffered, and I don't know how long this condition will persist, it is drying me out both mentally and emotionally.

I felt like I had to do something, and I did. It was a huge failure.
The failure added another layer of worrying thoughts to a pile already accumulated in my mind.

I hate this kind of feeling, it is drowning me day by day.
Everyday I'm suffocating, no one understands but God.

God please take me far far away from all of these miseries. I don't want to live like this anymore.
The negative side is winning me over.

I need you O Lord, I know you will never forsake me. Help me to get rid of all these unwanted feelings.

Set me free O Lord, set me free from all these burden, you lift me up and plant wings on my back so that I can fly, help me soar like an eagle and fly to a destined goal.

I'm still waiting for the day you answer my prayer Lord, please grant me patience to wait.
Amen.

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