Friday, March 24, 2017

Dance to the core of my soul

Since young, I have always wanted to learn ballroom dancing. My eyes would be brimming with envy when I saw other school mates perform on certain events. So finally, I picked up ballroom dancing lesson last year.

From the first moment I started to move my feet, I felt like my dancing soul had been awaken once again after hibernating for so long. The last time I remembered dancing was on our secondary school prefect night. 

I first learned waltz, a dance which requires gracefulness and a sense of direction, I had trouble grasping the direction at first, but after a bit of practice,  I got hold of it.

Then, I was taught Cha cha, a more lively vibrant dance. I'd watch so many cha cha live performance since young, so this dance kinda evokes so many memories and feelings. Dancing the move feels like, yeah, finally I get to be in their shoes, literally!

The third dance, which I'm currently learning, is Rhumba, it's like a slower version of chacha, but requires more hip movement. Let's get this rusty hips movin babeh! 

I once had a guy partner for a short while, however he had to go back to Sandakan for his culinary internship. So I was a bit depressed when he left. Dancing with partner is much more fun. So guess who become my partner? The teacher herself! Ain't that even better?! An expert be your partner! Thank God so much for this wonderful blessing!

Our teacher, Patricia, is the most amazing person I have ever met. She has been learning ballroom dancing since young. Now a young adult, she's a ballroom dance pundit and became one of the teachers! She's friendly, she's very thoughtful, she's just awesome in every way, in fact I think she teaches better than the other older teacher!

 I adore her so much. She said I'm the fastest learner among other students. Well, what can I say, I'm the youngest adult in my class. I'm competing against a grandma and a pair of husband and wife. That would be a shame if I can't keep up with a grandma right? Other than being the youngest, I also have music background, at least I understand the rhythm of the music, I know how to differentiate between a 3/4 and a 4/4 beat dance and when to start movin those feet. 

However, there are certain truth about me being a fast learner. You see, when you're doing something you really like, you'll learn it in a jiffy with so much less effort. I think that I'm totally in my Element. I'll tell you more about The Element in the next post. It's actually a book on how famous people discover their talent or what they like to do, and when they do, they are in their Element, the book also tells how they use their Element to make their way to success. So wait for my next post!

Talking about other dancing students, sometimes, I wish they won't show up. I know I'm bad, I shouldn't have said that. Cause sometimes, they can be a bit too slow. There are certain lessons I learned nothing new at all because the teacher needs to slow down and repeat the whole thing for them. And there's this guy who missed a lot of lessons because he's a busy busy business man, so we all had to wait for him before we can move on to the next step. It has been 5 months since I learned, and only 3 dances were taught. I really think I could have learnt 2 more dances. 

One thing about picking up a new skill they don't know about is it needs practicing. Just like my music teacher last time, she made sure I practice at least an hour a day so that when I attend her lesson, she wouldn't have to listen to my bad playing. And these students obviously didn't practice. They learn 1 hour, go home, forgot everything, attend the class next week, teacher has to repeat all over again. That's why it can be a wee be frustrated for me. Right now, we are preparing for our ballroom academy anniversary performance. So I really hope the others will attend every lesson, or at least practice at home themselves .

I practice at home at least twice a week, and I wanna thank God that my house is big enough for me to practice those moves. What to do, this is a group dance lesson, so you have to dance in a group loh. I had inquired other studios before, 1 on 1 teaching can go up RM70 per lesson. Yes, you didn't hear me wrong, that would be RM280 per month.   

Curious thing about time, it passes by like a bolt of lightning when you're having a good time. 1 hour is like 10 minutes to me. Having said that, my feet have to rest after an hour, they got very sore after those strenuous spinning and tip-toeing. So yeah, 1 hour may not be enough for the soul, but definitely the feet. Every time the class dismissed, I got a little sad. As soon as I reached home, I was already looking forward to next Saturday afternoon. And whenever I couldn't make it on Saturday because of other functions, I got distressed as well. Can you see how much I have fallen in love with ballroom dancing? From the first day until now, I enjoyed every minute of it. It's the best exercise ever!
Tomorrow is Saturday and I'm happy, because Saturday is ballroom dancing day! 

Thursday, March 23, 2017

Lazada Biggest Deal Ever!

Hey guys! I just wanted to tell you how awesome is Lazada, South East Asia biggest online store,

Lazada is celebrating its 5th birthday! And they are having the biggest sale ever!

Its theme: 5th Birthday Surprise is ON from 22nd - 24th March ONLY.

There's live flash sale going on right now!
Everything from beauty products to house appliances!

The flash sale will change every 2 hours, so be on the constant lookout.
What are you waiting for?
Go ahead and grab anything you like while it last. I mean it. Now!

Click to start shopping!

or you may click on the advertisement as well =)

Why do I love LAZADA Malaysia?

It's fast and easy, you can get it at anything you like literally at the tip of your finger!
It has everything that I need!
Simple as that. 

Which 3 products you like from LAZADA Malaysia?

1.  Tefal emotion Stainless Steel bundle set with FREE spatula

2.  Sk II Trial Set 8

3.  SoKaNo Trendz SKN811 6 Pcs Nylon Back Premium Set

How do I think LAZADA Malaysia can improve?

Extend the time limit of product cancellation. Sometimes we only realized our mistakes after a day we bought it.

My birthday wish to LAZADA Malaysia.
Happy Birthday once again LAZADA, may you always be the largest e-commerce platform for shoppers in Malaysia. Lazy shoppers like us can't survive without you!
Happy Shopping everyone!

Monday, March 20, 2017

My way to more wonderful life

We are entering the 3rd month of the year now, there are a few happenings, let me give you a quick update.

I've started on my driving lessons. Auto is so much more easy than manual car. Enough said.
I was really scared at first, but then I conquered my fear of handling huge heavy machine and yeah, I drove all the way around Donggongon and Putatan area. 
I'm so proud of myself!

The other day, I met the President of SWEPA, president Wynnie, (it's pronounced just like my name) at a book launching event, she is a very nice lady. She invited me to a talk held by the organization.
If you never heard of SWEPA, it is Sabah Women Entrepreneur and Professionals Association, an organization to help women in Sabah, quite self explanatory isn't it?

So I attended this talk at Wisma Wanita last week. 

The talk was delivered by Dr. Oh Ei Sun, a former political secretary at Malaysia prime minister Office on the topic "Belt and Road Initiative". 
Hearing the title of this guy had already given me goosebumps, not to mention meeting him in person. I don't know why, but he reminded me of Mr. Bean. =)

The topic was mainly about the relationship between China and Sabah both in business and culture. 
I gotta say, I felt dumb and brilliant at the same time after hearing the talk. 
I felt dumb cause I don't quite understand this unfamiliar topic. 
I felt brilliant cause I've learnt so much insightful never-heard-before information in 2 hours.
Isn't that amazing?

And the most important part was, these wonderful women were able to give their own opinion on the issues discussed. Lesson of the day: Never underestimate the intelligence of women. They might surprised you with their wide and in-dept knowledge and English vocabulary. 
Man I felt even dumber now. It's time to read something out of my comfort zone.

Oh, haven't I tell you guys, I picked up ballroom dancing and I have completely fallen in love with it.
I'll tell you more in details in my next post =)

That's all for now.

Friday, February 17, 2017

A relfection - Belief

I had an epiphany after talking to my psychologist. There are a lot of things you've been taught all these while may not be the entire truth. 

Take Christianity for example, I stopped going to church for a few reasons. 
Since young I've been attending church services faithfully.
Then in my youth, I was an active member trying my very best to organize events to bring the youth together. 

All these years in the church, I was taught to fear God. In the Old Testament, God was depicted as a fearful unforgiving God. He would send punishments in the form of plagues and famine to His people, and that made me scared of him. So when I addressed this problem to my church member, they told me to skip the Old Testament and focus on the New Testament. They say I must read the bible everyday to keep connected to God. 

I was told that don't wait until you're about to face death then you start to believe. One of the more extreme church I've attended before kept on emphasizing about the coming of Jesus Christ and heaven. They don't use pianos and guitars, because in heaven there are no these type of instruments. Whereas people who don't believe in Jesus will be cast to hell. So everyday I would pray and pray that my love ones would start going to church. 

In my whole life, I was taught to fear this invisible being which I do not exactly sure if he really exists. I was taught that I must pray everyday, and it cannot be just 5 minute long, it must be at least half an hour, because God gave us so much, or else I'm not committed enough. I was told that I need to attend every cell group meeting, 3 times a week, even though I don't feel like it, cause what we discuss in the meeting are practically the same as the Sunday sermon. At times, because of my duty in church, I felt like I'm obligated to attend church instead of attending it on my own will. 

I tried going back to church, it no longer felt the same, sermons annoyed me. There's a constant debate in my mind about the whole bible. 

Come to think of it, there's no concrete evidence that the bible is the truth. In fact it was not written by God himself, it was written by humans. Human's own interpretation. Not to mention all the christian books and daily breads out there, they are all human's own interpretation. The more I read these, the more I felt stressed as I felt the need to follow every thing they said. 

I find that christians are as rigid as uncooked spaghetti. Take LGBT issue for example. 
When I asked a christian counselor about it, she was not keen on discussing about this topic but told me to just read the bible. I asked another church member whether homosexual is nature or nurture, she strongly denied it was nature. Do you know why do Christians refused to accept that gays are nature? It is because by accepting that, they are agreeing that God made them that way, which of course contradicts the bible teachings. 

All of these teachings and sermons had created an insecurity inside me, that's why I'm worried all the time. Sadly to say that I think I got anxiety because of Christianity. I was constantly worried that I will offend this mighty God and got punished. That's why at some point I thought that my illness is a punishment from Him. Everyday I will ask for forgiveness even though I didn't make any mistakes, because that's what I was taught, we need to be humble by seeking forgiveness everyday. I am worried that if I don't pray everyday, my love ones won't be protected and might face danger. 

These people are living in fear, because they are living in the future! Everyday they are waiting and preparing themselves for the second coming of Christ and forgot to live in the present. How can you be happy if you're constantly worrying about the unknown?!

Here's a chinese saying which I find so relatable and I think you should ponder about it too.

If you are depressed, you are living in the past. 

If you are anxious, you are living in the future. 
If you are at peace you are living in the present. 

And do you realize that the word "present" has a second meaning?

Yesterday is a History.

Tomorrow is a Mystery. 
Today is a Gift.
That's why it's called Present.

This is my blog's quote, I just realized that the answer to happiness has always been right in front of my eye! 

My therapist  recommended a simple technique called Mindfulness. It's a kind of meditation which teaches us to be at the moment, to be aware of our body and surrounding. Our brain is too busy thinking of the past and the future, it needed some rest. You can download this app called Headspace, it really helped me to relax and embrace the present. 

I tried to ditch God a lot of time, but I couldn't, His existence had been deeply ingrained in me. Hence I still believe in Him, I still pray, but I won't read the bible or attend church anymore.