Tuesday, January 12, 2016

What a surprise!

It's the first post of 2016 and I'm gonna start it with a happy and positive one.

The reason I wanna share my happiness is because happiness doesn't come to me easily.
For people like me, joy is a luxury, it's like a deep buried treasure. 
So I'm gonna document it savour these moments while it last.

Met up with an old friend last year. It was so nice to see her. We shared stories, for the first time in like ever, I can relate so much to her and she also relate to my predicament. 
It felt like our stories intertwine and connected. 
Hope to see you soon Xin Yu.



We sat on a bench facing this beautiful scenery at Tanjung Aru, and chat like there's no tomorrow.
It's one of the most wonderful thing that happened to me last year.

BTW Tanjung Aru really should be upgraded. The facility is so bad, smell from the drain is so awful. And one more thing, if you buy coconut, make sure it's freshly cut. Coz I think we got cheated, they gave us used coconut shell, and poured diluted coconut water in it. 



On New year eve, I hang out with these guys. 
They "surprised" Stephen and I with a little celebration.
Well it's not really a surprised since Stephen ruined it by asking "Hey are you guys going to celebrate our birthday?" Typical Stephen being Stephen. =)
Guess what we were doing on new year eve? 
Playing monopoly at mamak!
That was a first for me!


 On my 22nd birthday, my parents brought me to Dubuyo for dinner.
The toppoki is too spicy, I can't handle it. The pancake and beef soup are nice. Price wise, a little above average for us but service is quite fast. So I'mma give 6.8/10.


Yesterday, I hang out with another bunch of old classmate. Some I haven't meet since secondary school. They must be very shock to see my weight gain.
It's good to see them again after a long while. 
We brought up so many past stories and gossips. Hehehe
Our kind hearted towkay Tuang paid for both the wonderful vegetarian meal and our starbucks drinks!
Kamsahamida.


Then they took this out from a plastic bag which Janet had been holding all these while and sang a birthday song! For me! Awwww....
 Oh and thanks again Towkay for sponsoring these delicious cupcakes.


Facebook actually made it even depressing for me on my birthday. 
On that day it showed all the past birthday memories. 
And I noticed the number of people wishing me is getting lesser and lesser each year. 

Just when you thought everyone had forgotten your birthday, Janet handed me this present.
 Janet went to KL last week, she met up with a few old classmate and bought me this wonderful handbag. It's from Yee Fei, Ilyas, Clarice, Annette, Janet and Marilyn.
Thank you guys! I don't need to look for a new handbag this year.


Last but not least, a wonderful drawing from the person who had been supporting me mentally and spiritually throughout last year. My dear friend Teh. No words can describe how much I am grateful for you to be by my side when I needed you the most. I may now still having trouble believing in Christianity, but I hope that one day I'll regain that faith back. Thanks for keeping me in your prayer everyday. I wish you all the best. May the Lord use your talent to bless other people.


This is a simple portrait I've drawn for her last year as her birthday present.
I know it doesn't look anything like her at all. >_<
But at least I tried. It's been ages since I draw.


I really want to hold on to that believe that more good things will come soon.
Wish me all the best.

Thursday, December 31, 2015

Last day

Without realizing, we have come to the time of the year where we reflect and see if our year resolutions have been crossed.

This year have been really tough, it's like riding roller coaster in hell. Those who said that they had a rough year, if you're only a student with no sickness at all, I don't think yours will be as rough as mine. Coz all ya had to do is finish your damn assignments and enjoy uni life.

This year, people whom I least expected, whom I didn't know would mean so much to me right now, showed up and helped me when I needed them the most. On the contrary, people who used to meant a lot to you vanished like thin air. When they got too caught up with their own lives, you are no longer important to them. Without a simple word of caring like "how are you?" once in a while.

Perhaps I put too much expectations on them. Perhaps I have to get used to all of these. People came and left without a trace. To those few who really cared, I sincerely thank you very much. I hope you won't erase me in your memory too soon. 

I have no resolutions. I just wish that there's someone out there who can pull me out of this dark valley. I really need that someone who truly understand me instead of seeing me as a nuisance and want to get rid of me. 

I just hope that all of these will end soon.
 

Sunday, December 27, 2015

Cinderella 2015

I have always been a huge fan of Cinderella. I blogged about it 3 years ago and Imma blog about it again. This year March, Disney released a live action version Cinderella, no twisted ending, just the plain old classic Cinderella.


I have to say, it was the most enchanting, magical and wonderful Cinderella movie ever made, yes even surpassed 1950's Disney animated version. 

Fox movies recently broadcasted it, and I've watched it every time it shows. You just can't get enough of it. Watching Cinderella makes me feel like a child again. It's one of the few things that made me happy. I find that there's two most magical moment, the first is Cinderella's transformation, and the second is the dance. Don't you feel like you're floating in the air when you watch them dance? Well actually every romantic dance scene made me melt =)

There's one thing I wanted to point out in this movie - the costume. 
Every piece of them was so painstakingly designed and made by the talented English designer Sandy Powell.

Did you know that Cate Blanchett who plays Lady Tremaine in the movie actually changed more than 10 costumes? Don't believe me? Here there are. Watch closer, they may be similar in silhouette, but they are totally different dresses.

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One of the costumes in deleted scenes.

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The mourning part (Deleted Scene)

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The mourning part (Deleted Scene)

All of her costumes were really exquisite and luxurious. Lady Tremaine is trully a Parisian with fine taste as described by the narrator. Poor Cinderella only had 3 costumes throughout the entire movie.
Cate Blanchett is the perfect candidate for this role, she pulled character off wonderfully. You can definitely feel the evil stepmother aura.

This is one of the deleted scenes. I really think the mourning part should be included.

I just found out Lily James sang her version of  "A dream is A wish your Heart make".
The song was sang at the end credit and I just found out lately! 


Here are some of behind the scenes. You can see how much effort they've put into making this magical moment transpired. Especially the grand ballroom and costumes. Thanks to all the crew and cast, Cinderella die hard fans' dream could come true. 


Do you wanna know why I like Cinderella the most among other Disney princesses? Cause it taught me that the most wonderful and magical thing can happen to anyone with a pure good heart. And 2015 Cinderella's main message is "Have courage and be kind."

Though we may not have enough actual prince for all the ladies out there, but I'm sure somehow we'll find that prince who owns our heart.

Click here to read my post about all the Cinderella's that I've watched 3 years ago.




Christmas isn't Christmas anymore.

While everyone is busy decorating their houses with christmas tress, wrapping presents and preparing for Christmas events, I'm one of those who don't look forward to all of these. 

Those who know me and read my blog will surely know the affliction I'm going through especially this year. Sadly not many come forward and give a damn about me. That's why I always hesitate to tell people about my real condition. Because they won't care anyway.

This sickness caused me to lose faith in God and also Christianity. 

It's the worst Christmas ever. I have no anticipation at all. I can't even bring myself to listen to my favorite Christmas songs.

But looking at pictures on fb made me jealous and forlorn. There's this conflict inside me. I wanted to be part of those joy and yet how could I find joy if I don't believe?

Christmas was supposed to be and it used to be the most wonderful time of the year. 
I just wish those days would come back.

By the way, talking about presents. One of my acquaintance who is currently staying in England, showed off how many presents she had received from her English boyfriend's family. She literally got a present from EVERY member of that family she's staying with. My first thought was "wow, these western family are very particular about presents. They make sure everyone has it."

Another acquaintance posted a photo on her fb saying the value of the present doesn't matter, it's the heart that matters. And guess what was captured in that photo? An Iphone 6s! Irony and hypocrisy much?!